[ Ruffle this bird's feathers and he'll peck the snake's scales right back. Maybe it'll eat him whole one day, maybe it'll wind around him until he draws his last breath. That's just how it goes when it's a little bit of column A, a little bit of column B where as tired as he is to think about the optics of their circumstances, it's as educated as it is a likely poor decision.
And yet again— ]
Owww.
[ —at his ear being tugged, he's nuzzling deeper into Sampo as if he's contemplating whether he's more than just a perch to rest on, but—
a nest. He almost feels comfortable enough to be one, fangs and all, and that's how Elysium knows he's truly lost his mind.
But, what does it mean to miss out? A life spent wandering with no place to be, no place to go. Homes in a place where no one breathes and another in a collection of people who'd wanted to make the world a better place but ultimately of which was a means to an end. A life with no purpose other than to leave things as he'd found them or in better condition, because there was no telling when he'd have to go for one reason or another.
Sampo Koski's opinion matters. Of course it does. What is in a life other than burning bright as you can?
Unfortunately, it should be said that as poetic and touching this all might be, there's a lesson to be learned (or maybe, he's just refused to learn) that his exchanges are hardly ever at a one to one. His hands, dipping down further, will eventually find their way underneath Sampo's cloak. It isn't so much to elicit a reaction as it is to chase after that bit of warmth, closing that useless bit of distance. They might be hiding away from the world, but——they don't need to hide from each other. He'd called Elysium greedy, once, twice. And, he really is. ]
… c'mon. I already told you I would. You know…
[ He thinks of the burning in his chest, of the sea, and of a vial. Of how many variables that have aligned, and maybe that's really what he needs to worry about here. ]
As much of a mess as things are, I'm somehow keeping most of my words to you.
[ … at the cost of his word to others, but there's always a cost, always a price. Funny how he'd admonished Sampo for assigning values only to do practically the same thing, dressed up to look more humane. How unlucky. ]
[See, that is the dangerous thing, here. He shouldn't be a nest. Its like leaving one's favorite little budgie in the reptile house. It's not going to work. Plain and simple. Logic 101. Dr. Ratio would be throwing chalk at both of their heads for it.]
[He's a businessman, not a gambling man, but even so, he wouldn't put any bets on him. Elysium is putting something on him, snuggled tight into him as he is now. Maybe its not a bet. Maybe he just wants Sampo to coil around him and hold him tight. An example of existence. If you long for an embrace, and no one is there to give it, do you exist in this world?]
[He sighs. And then lets himself a little treat here, nose nuzzling into the man's feathery hair as he sways them side to side.]
...I miss that tail, sometimes. You'd hold it oh so nicely.
[And so he, too, returns the favor. Its only something that Elysium would understand, and Elysium would know. He briefly wonders how this may look on the outside. A love affair? Ha. A joke from a clown. As if it would ever be simple. Sampo finds his own hands carressing over the man's back. As if there could be wings there.]
But anyways. Yeah. Sure. Words for me. Y'know...let's go away for a bit. You and me. Little vacation. I think we deserve it. I don't think I'll be a popular guy around town for a while, anyways.
[ A pantomime of an actual affair to the vague, vague shape of one. Or perhaps, that's what it's always been with several more vagues tacked on to the end of it. Idly, a finger on the skin of Sampo's back traces light shapes into it—an E, an S, a circle and a square, he's not really thinking much of it. It might tickle, it might feel nice, these delicate, insignificant imprints that he'd always been mindful against leaving.
Not forgetting to mention the glowing indicator of the one on his neck, Elysium squeezes, laughing dryly. ]
But go away somewhere, huh. [ There's something wistful in that tone, like he's thinking of something removed from a bit. Two backpacks, no destination, an entire world before them unexplored. Perhaps a riff on what that dream could've been. ] … I have a little experience with that. It involved a one-way trip by foot followed by an earful of a helicopter ride all the way back.
[ … Admittedly, he's distracted, simply thinking about and basking in the feeling of skin on skin. ]
As long as we don't stray too far, it shouldn't be as much trouble. [ Distantly. ] There are places I go to stargaze, places I go when I want quiet from the city. They aren't half bad. [ … ] What were you thinking?
[ … And if… those shapes that Elysium's tracing gradually stray lower and lower, it's all Sampo's imagination… ]
You didn't, no. Then again, we kind of had a major distraction and a half there, huh.
[If the end of the world can be a major distraction. The fingertip traces its letters, its shapes. As if it could actually leave anything permanent there - Elysium seems like he's always threatened to do that sort of thing. He's a slippery little beast, that Sampo Koski. A snake was always fitting for who he is - if you don't have a solid grasp on him to the point of pain, he would coil himself out of your grasp.]
[But a little bird has held him fast. He loathes him for it. He loves him for it. And as much as his feelings mix and burn on his insides, he wants this, to get lost in the feeling of it all.]
[Like drowning in the sea.]
Haha. An earful? You deserve that, pal. [He can kind of see it now - loved ones berating this poor bird for his flighty endeavors.] And...hm. We could visit those places. Me, I was just thinking in general. A little spot outside. Maybe a little camp! I have experience with that in Belobog.
[The hand wanders. Sampo pulls back just a little bit, if only to look at him with lidded, glimmering eyes. His lips press another kiss over the man's forehead, the tip of his tongue dipping over the skin as he murmurs into it.]
...Hey. Keep that up there, and I will cash in on that interest now instead of later. Though...maybe that's what you want?
[ It's more than simply drowning at sea—it's a relentless cycle of basking under the sun, only to be plucked away just as the warmth begins to settle, then dropped into varying depths time and time again.
To that effect, lifelong habits don't change overnight. A tern isn't a budgie, just as a corn snake isn't a viper. Migratory birds don't become nomadic on a whim, they'd have to go against their instincts move. Proximity, though easy to understand in concept—the comfort of another's presence, the warmth of touch—becomes a different matter entirely when stripped of the familiar veneer of a stage, a script, or the rehearsed motions he's grown accustomed to performing.
Elysium doesn't flinch, but the intimacy does continue to unsettle him all the same. His breath catching as he shivers under the tender kiss to his forehead, there's an ache that twists in his chest, the kind of closeness he's never quite learned to embrace yet desires to, that clamps down on the instinctive urge to take flight.
His mouth parts, wordless for the brief second. … Then, as if it'd never happened: ]
Maybe, maybe. It's too bad that I can remember a time when a certain tall, blue, and handsome guy admonished me for a similar kind of irresponsibility. Unless…
[ Unless!!! Sampo would like to take Elysium's eyes narrowing back as a kind of encouragement? The hand on his hip slides under one waistband—two waistbands—all while threatening to go lower still. Regardless of what the other's response might be, Elysium will continue on regardless; in tandem with that movement, Elysium dips his head lower, pressing an open mouthed kiss against Sampo's mouth. With his eyes fluttering shut, his tongue tentatively seeks access.
It's not meant to be a kiss that steals his breath away, or anything adjacent to that. Rather than some kind of precusor… it's more something of a seal, for that possible "later," granted his heart stops threatening to beat out of his chest. At some point, Elysium's hand starts moving again, lower
and lower,
until he
both pinches Sampo's hip line and releases the kiss, his expression cheeky, cheeky, while his voice is a touch breathless. ]
… unless you'd like to end up reopening my wounds, and have to bury yourself rather than me?
[ … this much is familiar, a deferral to a different time that may or may not come to pass. Setting aside that Elysium would like it, yeah, if his wounds didn't open for a literal third time. ]
But… let's do it. Your little vacation, your little getaway. With how things are, out there—it almost is like its own world. It'll be fun.
[Yeah, this is Elysium, alright. In all sense of the word. The place. The concept. The man. The little thing with feathers. A man like him shouldn't wander into it. This is as dangerous for the snake as it is for the bird. Sampo shivers, perceptibly, and feels a warmth unlike anything he's ever known fill him up. He's used to cold places. Reptiles seek the heat.]
[The kiss is a contract in and of itself, huh. He signs it, dots it, notarizes it - by returning it, of course, with a breathless sigh and another pleased shudder that ignores the pain of bandaged wounds. He wants to suck on his lower lip, here, but the pinch makes him break it with a little "ooh!" before he pouts.]
I'd very much not like to do that, thank you.
[It's not even about the exposure, its about Elysium being an idiot. He's not a responsible guy. He doesn't want to add more wounds to take care of to his personal list if he can help it. Still, the momentary grimace recedes away with a little grin.]
[There you have it.]
Of course it will be fun. [And now his hand is sliding back to boop the man on the nose.] Buuuuuut. First things first, amigo.
[No warning whatsoever. He's bending down to scoop the man up into his arms as easy as anything. Hehe..]
We're getting you right back into the arms of the medical staff! Thanks for the reminder. I can't have you bleeding all over me out there, right?
[ WHAT DOES HE MEAN HEHE… what kind of carry is this, tf!!!
Regardless of what kind of carry it is, he really isn't used to being toted around, much less being manhandled like he's weightless. He knows better than to struggle and worsen both their conditions, (is Sampo in condition to be carrying him???) but what happened to being too old for these things?
At least, Sampo gets the benefit of what's probably the most flustered expression Elysium has ever worn around him, and the sound of a startled yelp, between the action itself and the twinge from sudden movement. ]
Bro!! [ bro!! (platonic)!! ] I can walk!! What the heck?
Uh-huh. No speaking, "bro". Ol' Sampo will take care of you.
[He really shouldn't be doing this - bridal carrying Elysium, specifically. He's kind of the worse for wear, here, too. But ah, what is pain? A momentary obstacle.]
[Besides, that flustered face makes up for everything here. That's a payment to satisfy some debt if he ever saw it.]
[He moves back to the entrance to the stairs, humming a little tune.]
[ Does he cover his face? Does he pinch Sampo's face until he relents? For a while, it'll look like he settled into some kind of begrudged acceptance, arm closest to Sampo freeing itself wind around Sampo's. It's a little much to look at Sampo directly other than to steal the occasional glance, but he has a perfect view of the bandages that litter the other's body like this, and the sensation of muscles tensing at his back.
Normally, it should feel comforting, right? Secure? That the carry is stable despite everything? No, because he wouldn't have done half of what he's done if he were the type of sane person to accept help at anyone's expense in the first place. So— ]
… Not unless you're prepared for returning fire, yourself.
[ —with that, as "bros" are wont to do, his arms are looping around Sampo's neck, bringing their faces closer. Unlike Sampo, he's nicer ("nicer") to provide additonal warning, in
a kiss to his jaw, to his cheek, and finally, lastly, to his mouth, pressing incessantly, eyes narrowed in determination.
… this, too, is a kind of pvp……
please
he can walk!!!!!!!!!!! (real)!!!
or fail in this exercise of shamelessness because his lungs really do kind of suck rn. tragic. in which he just as lamely tucks his head into his shoulder, after. (the truth behind the other kiss…) ]
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[Oh, he'll go there. He'll wade in and put his dirty hands all over the prstine white carpets just because he can. Because chaos asks for it. Elation asks for it.]
[He's humming, claiming victory, but then - a bird is coming very, VERY close and just. Uh. Well, he half expected a fight here, but there's one kiss, another, and now he's being kissed on the mouth. All very, very dizzying, but before he can react
Elysium is dropping back to nuzzle into his neck.]
[Sampo heaves a little sigh, more affectionate than he means it to be.]
Now, now, buddy. A few kisses won't make me drop ya. Besides, there will be plenty of time for that kinda thing later.
[Now he's really going to rub it in, giving a little comical kiss to the top of his head.]
I won't drop you. I said I'd be there for you, didn't I?
Shut uuuup… I liked you better when you were easier.
[ like when he'd startled at thoughtless gestures of affection, abrupt compliments of cute and beautiful. when it was all about a competition of who'd come out on top when it came to little adrenaline rushes and acts of indecency. much like how Sampo had the urge to flip him off the roof—
Elysium has half the mind to strangle him here and now.
… but there's this little thing. This little thing called trust. The trust everyone asks of him which he isn't sure he has or is even capable of. The trust that requires him to put his life to bat isn't really significant, in the grand scheme of things—he's done it countless times, both for people he knows and those he doesn't.
It's the trust that has him once again overriding his own instincts, the trust that has him squirming in Sampo's arms uncomfortably trying to figure out what would be comfortable before he concedes to himself that there isn't, any. While he still isn't sure if this trust of his has any intrinsic value, still isn't sure if it's worth it given the associated costs, more delicate than a life, the word 'comrade-in-arms' floats to the surface in attempt to define it. It sinks like an anchor, not enough, not quite, to characterise what it is that Elysium has clumsily pieced together into settling his head on Sampo's shoulder, forcing his eyes closed. ]
… But that's a lie, only because you're getting me to do some pretty uncharacteristic things. [ A press of a kiss cues the drop of something else in his chest. Still: slowly, slowly. His breath starts evening out. ] … So, just so you know… it's going to take more than what happened to make me leave.
[ A perch, a nest, an open cage—
in the end, it doesn't matter what it is; the bird will fly in willingly, tuck its wings in, and drift off into slumber. ]
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And yet again— ]
Owww.
[ —at his ear being tugged, he's nuzzling deeper into Sampo as if he's contemplating whether he's more than just a perch to rest on, but—
a nest. He almost feels comfortable enough to be one, fangs and all, and that's how Elysium knows he's truly lost his mind.
But, what does it mean to miss out? A life spent wandering with no place to be, no place to go. Homes in a place where no one breathes and another in a collection of people who'd wanted to make the world a better place but ultimately of which was a means to an end. A life with no purpose other than to leave things as he'd found them or in better condition, because there was no telling when he'd have to go for one reason or another.
Sampo Koski's opinion matters. Of course it does. What is in a life other than burning bright as you can?
Unfortunately, it should be said that as poetic and touching this all might be, there's a lesson to be learned (or maybe, he's just refused to learn) that his exchanges are hardly ever at a one to one. His hands, dipping down further, will eventually find their way underneath Sampo's cloak. It isn't so much to elicit a reaction as it is to chase after that bit of warmth, closing that useless bit of distance. They might be hiding away from the world, but——they don't need to hide from each other. He'd called Elysium greedy, once, twice. And, he really is. ]
… c'mon. I already told you I would. You know…
[ He thinks of the burning in his chest, of the sea, and of a vial. Of how many variables that have aligned, and maybe that's really what he needs to worry about here. ]
As much of a mess as things are, I'm somehow keeping most of my words to you.
[ … at the cost of his word to others, but there's always a cost, always a price. Funny how he'd admonished Sampo for assigning values only to do practically the same thing, dressed up to look more humane. How unlucky. ]
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[He's a businessman, not a gambling man, but even so, he wouldn't put any bets on him. Elysium is putting something on him, snuggled tight into him as he is now. Maybe its not a bet. Maybe he just wants Sampo to coil around him and hold him tight. An example of existence. If you long for an embrace, and no one is there to give it, do you exist in this world?]
[He sighs. And then lets himself a little treat here, nose nuzzling into the man's feathery hair as he sways them side to side.]
...I miss that tail, sometimes. You'd hold it oh so nicely.
[And so he, too, returns the favor. Its only something that Elysium would understand, and Elysium would know. He briefly wonders how this may look on the outside. A love affair? Ha. A joke from a clown. As if it would ever be simple. Sampo finds his own hands carressing over the man's back. As if there could be wings there.]
But anyways. Yeah. Sure. Words for me. Y'know...let's go away for a bit. You and me. Little vacation. I think we deserve it. I don't think I'll be a popular guy around town for a while, anyways.
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[ A pantomime of an actual affair to the vague, vague shape of one. Or perhaps, that's what it's always been with several more vagues tacked on to the end of it. Idly, a finger on the skin of Sampo's back traces light shapes into it—an E, an S, a circle and a square, he's not really thinking much of it. It might tickle, it might feel nice, these delicate, insignificant imprints that he'd always been mindful against leaving.
Not forgetting to mention the glowing indicator of the one on his neck, Elysium squeezes, laughing dryly. ]
But go away somewhere, huh. [ There's something wistful in that tone, like he's thinking of something removed from a bit. Two backpacks, no destination, an entire world before them unexplored. Perhaps a riff on what that dream could've been. ] … I have a little experience with that. It involved a one-way trip by foot followed by an earful of a helicopter ride all the way back.
[ … Admittedly, he's distracted, simply thinking about and basking in the feeling of skin on skin. ]
As long as we don't stray too far, it shouldn't be as much trouble. [ Distantly. ] There are places I go to stargaze, places I go when I want quiet from the city. They aren't half bad. [ … ] What were you thinking?
[ … And if… those shapes that Elysium's tracing gradually stray lower and lower, it's all Sampo's imagination… ]
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[If the end of the world can be a major distraction. The fingertip traces its letters, its shapes. As if it could actually leave anything permanent there - Elysium seems like he's always threatened to do that sort of thing. He's a slippery little beast, that Sampo Koski. A snake was always fitting for who he is - if you don't have a solid grasp on him to the point of pain, he would coil himself out of your grasp.]
[But a little bird has held him fast. He loathes him for it. He loves him for it. And as much as his feelings mix and burn on his insides, he wants this, to get lost in the feeling of it all.]
[Like drowning in the sea.]
Haha. An earful? You deserve that, pal. [He can kind of see it now - loved ones berating this poor bird for his flighty endeavors.] And...hm. We could visit those places. Me, I was just thinking in general. A little spot outside. Maybe a little camp! I have experience with that in Belobog.
[The hand wanders. Sampo pulls back just a little bit, if only to look at him with lidded, glimmering eyes. His lips press another kiss over the man's forehead, the tip of his tongue dipping over the skin as he murmurs into it.]
...Hey. Keep that up there, and I will cash in on that interest now instead of later. Though...maybe that's what you want?
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To that effect, lifelong habits don't change overnight. A tern isn't a budgie, just as a corn snake isn't a viper. Migratory birds don't become nomadic on a whim, they'd have to go against their instincts move. Proximity, though easy to understand in concept—the comfort of another's presence, the warmth of touch—becomes a different matter entirely when stripped of the familiar veneer of a stage, a script, or the rehearsed motions he's grown accustomed to performing.
Elysium doesn't flinch, but the intimacy does continue to unsettle him all the same. His breath catching as he shivers under the tender kiss to his forehead, there's an ache that twists in his chest, the kind of closeness he's never quite learned to embrace yet desires to, that clamps down on the instinctive urge to take flight.
His mouth parts, wordless for the brief second. … Then, as if it'd never happened: ]
Maybe, maybe. It's too bad that I can remember a time when a certain tall, blue, and handsome guy admonished me for a similar kind of irresponsibility. Unless…
[ Unless!!! Sampo would like to take Elysium's eyes narrowing back as a kind of encouragement? The hand on his hip slides under one waistband—two waistbands—all while threatening to go lower still. Regardless of what the other's response might be, Elysium will continue on regardless; in tandem with that movement, Elysium dips his head lower, pressing an open mouthed kiss against Sampo's mouth. With his eyes fluttering shut, his tongue tentatively seeks access.
It's not meant to be a kiss that steals his breath away, or anything adjacent to that. Rather than some kind of precusor… it's more something of a seal, for that possible "later," granted his heart stops threatening to beat out of his chest. At some point, Elysium's hand starts moving again, lower
and lower,
until he
both pinches Sampo's hip line and releases the kiss, his expression cheeky, cheeky, while his voice is a touch breathless. ]
… unless you'd like to end up reopening my wounds, and have to bury yourself rather than me?
[ … this much is familiar, a deferral to a different time that may or may not come to pass. Setting aside that Elysium would like it, yeah, if his wounds didn't open for a literal third time. ]
But… let's do it. Your little vacation, your little getaway. With how things are, out there—it almost is like its own world. It'll be fun.
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[The kiss is a contract in and of itself, huh. He signs it, dots it, notarizes it - by returning it, of course, with a breathless sigh and another pleased shudder that ignores the pain of bandaged wounds. He wants to suck on his lower lip, here, but the pinch makes him break it with a little "ooh!" before he pouts.]
I'd very much not like to do that, thank you.
[It's not even about the exposure, its about Elysium being an idiot. He's not a responsible guy. He doesn't want to add more wounds to take care of to his personal list if he can help it. Still, the momentary grimace recedes away with a little grin.]
[There you have it.]
Of course it will be fun. [And now his hand is sliding back to boop the man on the nose.] Buuuuuut. First things first, amigo.
[No warning whatsoever. He's bending down to scoop the man up into his arms as easy as anything. Hehe..]
We're getting you right back into the arms of the medical staff! Thanks for the reminder. I can't have you bleeding all over me out there, right?
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Regardless of what kind of carry it is, he really isn't used to being toted around, much less being manhandled like he's weightless. He knows better than to struggle and worsen both their conditions, (is Sampo in condition to be carrying him???) but what happened to being too old for these things?
At least, Sampo gets the benefit of what's probably the most flustered expression Elysium has ever worn around him, and the sound of a startled yelp, between the action itself and the twinge from sudden movement. ]
Bro!! [ bro!! (platonic)!! ] I can walk!! What the heck?
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[He really shouldn't be doing this - bridal carrying Elysium, specifically. He's kind of the worse for wear, here, too. But ah, what is pain? A momentary obstacle.]
[Besides, that flustered face makes up for everything here. That's a payment to satisfy some debt if he ever saw it.]
[He moves back to the entrance to the stairs, humming a little tune.]
You're cute as a button, you know that?
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[ Does he cover his face? Does he pinch Sampo's face until he relents? For a while, it'll look like he settled into some kind of begrudged acceptance, arm closest to Sampo freeing itself wind around Sampo's. It's a little much to look at Sampo directly other than to steal the occasional glance, but he has a perfect view of the bandages that litter the other's body like this, and the sensation of muscles tensing at his back.
Normally, it should feel comforting, right? Secure? That the carry is stable despite everything? No, because he wouldn't have done half of what he's done if he were the type of sane person to accept help at anyone's expense in the first place. So— ]
… Not unless you're prepared for returning fire, yourself.
[ —with that, as "bros" are wont to do, his arms are looping around Sampo's neck, bringing their faces closer. Unlike Sampo, he's nicer ("nicer") to provide additonal warning, in
a kiss to his jaw, to his cheek, and finally, lastly, to his mouth, pressing incessantly, eyes narrowed in determination.
… this, too, is a kind of pvp……
please
he can walk!!!!!!!!!!! (real)!!!
or fail in this exercise of shamelessness because his lungs really do kind of suck rn. tragic. in which he just as lamely tucks his head into his shoulder, after. (the truth behind the other kiss…) ]
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[He's humming, claiming victory, but then - a bird is coming very, VERY close and just. Uh. Well, he half expected a fight here, but there's one kiss, another, and now he's being kissed on the mouth. All very, very dizzying, but before he can react
Elysium is dropping back to nuzzle into his neck.]
[Sampo heaves a little sigh, more affectionate than he means it to be.]
Now, now, buddy. A few kisses won't make me drop ya. Besides, there will be plenty of time for that kinda thing later.
[Now he's really going to rub it in, giving a little comical kiss to the top of his head.]
I won't drop you. I said I'd be there for you, didn't I?
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[ like when he'd startled at thoughtless gestures of affection, abrupt compliments of cute and beautiful. when it was all about a competition of who'd come out on top when it came to little adrenaline rushes and acts of indecency. much like how Sampo had the urge to flip him off the roof—
Elysium has half the mind to strangle him here and now.
… but there's this little thing. This little thing called trust. The trust everyone asks of him which he isn't sure he has or is even capable of. The trust that requires him to put his life to bat isn't really significant, in the grand scheme of things—he's done it countless times, both for people he knows and those he doesn't.
It's the trust that has him once again overriding his own instincts, the trust that has him squirming in Sampo's arms uncomfortably trying to figure out what would be comfortable before he concedes to himself that there isn't, any. While he still isn't sure if this trust of his has any intrinsic value, still isn't sure if it's worth it given the associated costs, more delicate than a life, the word 'comrade-in-arms' floats to the surface in attempt to define it. It sinks like an anchor, not enough, not quite, to characterise what it is that Elysium has clumsily pieced together into settling his head on Sampo's shoulder, forcing his eyes closed. ]
… But that's a lie, only because you're getting me to do some pretty uncharacteristic things. [ A press of a kiss cues the drop of something else in his chest. Still: slowly, slowly. His breath starts evening out. ] … So, just so you know… it's going to take more than what happened to make me leave.
[ A perch, a nest, an open cage—
in the end, it doesn't matter what it is; the bird will fly in willingly, tuck its wings in, and drift off into slumber. ]